Funhouse!!

My blood is running everyday a bit faster as I look into my calender.....

23 days till I see miss Pink hitting the stage in Belgium and it's about freaking time that I see that gorgious woman again. I'm exited as hell, cuz I have the feeling that this tour is going to be special.....I feel it!

Three Pink gigs in a row, my precious friends around me.......seriously, I can't wait <3

Blast from the past.....

I had a conversation yesterday at work about my destructive party time in the early 90's. Seriously, it seems like a lifetime ago........ but this talk brought a lot of memories up!
Yes, this rockchick was a raver back in the 90's! A hardcore one to be honest.......

A black and heavy chapter in my book!
I don't talk much about this period in my life, because I'm not very proud of the person I was at that time. I was fucked up and I didn't live in the reality at all.....
It was basically sex, drugs and party that dominated my life. Anything else wasn't important!

I dated the biggest drugs dealers and needed the drugs to keep me going!
Every saturday I was in Barocci, that was the place to be for hardcore ravers.
The club was open from 22 pm till 14 pm, so for 16 hours the place was ours.
That was INSANE!!!
I really lived on the edge and I did basically everything to destroy myself!

This selfdestructive period lasted 2 years and I'm still amazed that I climbed out of that big, dark hole.
To slip into this hole is not that difficult, but to overcome this hell hole is a long and nasty road, I can tell you that!

I don't have any regrets, cuz I switched my life 180 degrees after my breaking point..... Thank god!!!
It made me a strong person and I'm actually glad that I experienced the dark side of life, because I really know how to value life now........

I found footage from the club on youtube......UNBELIEVABLE! And I even remember that night!



Time for coffee and chilling on the sofa with my book!
What a contrast.....

Home, sweet home!

I woke up at noon this Saturday......really, if I don't go out of bed I can lay there and sleep all day! No real plans this day, lovely!

So, I had the whole day for myself.

I made breakfast (or was it already lunchtime???) took a shower and went to the grocery shop. I returned with two big bags of supplies and decided to spend the rest of my day in the kitchen.....!!

I love to cook, but I don't make time for it lately. So, a big hurray for Dani cuz she inspired me to get my ass back into the kitchen again to cook more healthy food.

Stew is my specialty, so I made Goulash (with a bit of Vodka in it hehe) yesterday!

Cooking, a bottle of red wine and some Jack Johnson make my day perfect. I really should do this more often.......

Bas had to perform last night with one of his bands, but I had too much wine so I stayed at home and watched two movies. Seven pounds and Passengers.

I really wanted to give Seven pounds a second chance (I tried to watch it in Sweden, but the beginning was so slow, so we didn't continue watching), cuz I heard so many good reviews about the movie and I have to say that I misjudge the movie.

The beginning is slow indeed, but I really loved it! It's touching and the end is brilliant.

I didn't expect something like that at all.......

I'm watching the Australian open final now between Nadal and Federer and I need to prepare myself soon for my nightshift!

See ya!!

Macadamia nut cookies!

I had a chitchat with my friend Bonnie on Facebook last night about cookies.

Did you guys even tried the macademia nut cookies from the subway????

Seriously, it's better than sex.......

Beth Hart!

Yesterday started off with a phonecall......Mirella was sick, so she couldn't join us to the concert.

Such a bummer for her, cuz I know that she was excited to see Beth Hart for the first time!

Next time sweetie......make sure you feel better soon!

Anyways, I had a spare spot and wanted to surprise Edgar.....but that didn't turned out the way I expected, so I asked Bas instead! He actually had a band practicing that evening, but he cancelled it!

My nephew turned 11 yesterday so I had a birthday party too.

I gave him the high tech cd/dvd restore sytem he wanted as a present, so he was happy :)

My niece was also very happy......

cuz she could hug her auntie again, she's my biggest fan!!

I left the party around 17.30 to pick up Bas and Cheryl.
We drank coffee at Cheryl's place and Bas couldn't resist the guitar.....

We enjoyed ourselves so much that we lost track in time.....oops, cuz Misha was waiting for us at the venue! So, we jumped in the car and I drove faaaast WOOT WOOT!!!
We hooked up with Misha and entered the venue.
The Watt is an old club, pretty small and intimate, so the perfect place for my Beth to rock out!

Miss Hart started off with a killing version of "Mama", one of my personal favorites and that fucker managed to get me in tears right from the start....

Setlist:

Mama
New Song
Hiding Under Water
Good As It Gets
Missing You
Bottle Of Jesus
Soul Shine
Face Forward
Sick (Beth in audience)
Waterfalls
A Change Is Gonna Come
Everything Must Change (new song)
Congratulations
Jealousy
Monkey Back (Heroin Version)
Immortal (band solos)
LA Song
One Eyed Chicken
Am I The One (Dvd paradiso style)

Am I The One was the high light of the evening......She did the sitting in the audience version ones before and that was for the dvd recording. Holy Maria, I think this was even better than the Paradiso one.

After this ear orgasm we hooked up with Bianca, who was backstage to make pictures and hang out with the crew during the show! And we join them for the afterparty and I laughed my ass off when I saw the room.
It was small, old, crappy and it looked like a teenagers room.....there was even a sleeping sofa in it haha, hilarious! But the funniest part was the shower.....it was in the same room!
So while we were drinking beer and hanging out, Beth was showering.

What a funny situation.

The afterparty was fun, a bit boring in my humble opinion but we had a good laugh and hanging out with my girlies is always fun.
Bas stood in the middle of the attention, cuz the band members were all impressed by his selfmade basses and the fact that he plays bass in 4 different bands at the moment haha.
Mister rockstar himself didn't keep his mouth shut for 5 minutes pfff.


While the guys were talking about music, performing and god knows what else.....the girls had fun with lemons!

And cuddling each other <3

Beth was too tired to party and had a phone appointment with her shrink.

So, we drank a few beers and left the venue around 1 am.

Bye everyone......till next time!

Spread the love.....

I just got home from the afterparty of Beth Hart and as you see.......I'm still floading on high energy! My cup is filled to the top so I can share the rest with others! And that's exactly what I'm doing at the moment.

Let's spread the love......

Tonight I saw one of my closest friends again, after 3 months and we're not on speaking terms at the moment ( no need to explain here.....the ones who care knows the story) and I'm really proud of myself for the way I reacted in this kinda weird situation.
I saw her standing at the bar, I walked to her, gave her a kiss, looked her in the eyes and asked her how she was doing. She didn't expect this kind of reaction at all.......
She told me she was fine, I rubbed her cheek, gave her a wink and walked away!

I saw that my action did something to her.
She seems so lost and confused.........
I really don't care how much she hurted me, I understand that she wasn't herself at that time.
But to see her unhappy is torture for me.

Maybe the love I showed her tonight can make a difference and put her sight but on track!
Cuz I really believe that love can break through every barricade......

Cleaning mania.....

I'm having an overdosis of energy lately and it scares the shit out of me haha! Seriously, I've been cleaning, re-decorated my stuff, throwing away everything that isn't usefull for two days in a row now and I kinda like it.....scary! My sister called me and she asked me if I was pregnant, because she did the same thing during her two pregnanties.......like WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

Do I have to worry now?

I'm feeling sick......

.....I just watched the news on the tv and I'm crying!
A report about that sick and twisted manic that killed 2 babies and a worker in Dendermonde, Belgium. My stomach turned when I saw the chaos he created in that childcare centre.
I read about it in the newspapers and internet, but I didn't saw any footage or interviews with the families of the victims or staff.

He walked, dressed as the joker (Heath Ledger) into the childcare centre.....went straight to the babies room and stabbed his knife into the innocent little bodies. He walked out and continued his urgue to kill in another room. How is it, for godsake, possible that a person, a human being come to such a low and sick act??? I know that there are a lot of twisted persons on this planet, but even the worse monster can't cope with an act like this and would kill himself afterwards......this animal, without a heart laughed about his act and refuse to talk ever since.

My suggestion....dig a hole in the sahara dessert, throw him in and leave!
I can not cope with the fact that this sick person is getting a normal treatment, paid by hard working people as myself! Im against the death penalty normally, but this person doesn't deserve to live!

My thoughts are with the victims......

Weekend!

Saturdaymorning I went to Ridderkerk, that's a town near Rotterdam to collect 2 concert tickets for two fellow Pink fans. I'm getting more and more excited every day for the tour and as a "more than 3 days party in a row pro" I know that I need to start my preparation soon......cuz I need to be fit. So that means healthy food, enough rest/sleep, vitamines and working out.

My time in Sweden had a lot of value, I'm on high energy and I'm very productive/creative at the moment! I started to write a promotion plan for the band NIL and today I took everything out of my closets to re-decorate it. I threw away 3 trash bags full of shit and it really gave me a good feeling.....and more space!

I worked last night and It was really quiet, so I watched Twilight, finally!
A really nice movie.....I think I would fall in love with that vampire too.
I got home around 10 am this morning and didn't go to bed (I slept 4 hours at work.....enough)
So I started with my cleaning mania, with the music on ten!

The doorbell rang......who's that?
A pleasant surprise stood in front of my door, Edgar with a bag!
He didn't wanted to come in, cuz he just dropped by to give me the bag and a kiss....awww <3
So, our meeting took less than 10 minutes hahaha!

Do you wanna know what was in the bag?

Croissants, fresh orange juice and a note........
"If you work hard, you have to eat good, enjoy your breakfast"

I really can't believe he did this!!!!!!
He came all the way just to bring me breakfast? Really, I had tears in my eyes.
It's too sweet <3

I finished my lovely breakfast and continued re-decorating the mess, with a huge smile on my face!!!

It's been a week......

Since I came back from Sweden and I didn't even tell you how it was....uhum!

I went to Sweden to pay "my little sis" a visit and to take a break from my busy schedule.
I actually planned a trip in November, but my Live activities wouldn't allowed me to travel around that time. Ryanair made me a hella good offer to fly over to Sweden in January, so everything worked out fine after all!

My parents are my biggest fans nowadays and they brought me to Eindhoven to begin my long, long trip! 2 hours on a plane, 2 hours waiting for the bus to arrive at Skavsta airport and another 2,5 hours on the bus....awesome! But all worth it!
I arrived around 22.15 at the busstop in Örebro and Dani was waiting in the freezing cold to pick me up <3

Hungry, thirsty and tired, but happy to see that cute face again!
We headed off to Dani's little crib to begin our chill marathon..... We watched (I don't know how many) movies, ate yammie food, talked, shopped and had a fab time together. Just what I needed!! We didn't plan anything.....besides SUSHI!!!!

On Saturday we went to Västeras to visit Dani's mom and some friends!
Dani needed a haircut and we didn't had a proper lunch, so we ate deli food in the mall before her mom picked us up! We shopped some more and more (Dani bought killing heels and I'm still impressed that she could walk on these shoes....) and headed off to mom's house.

Her mom made us delicious food......Salmon, veggies and potato gratin.
She's such a sweetheart, she doesn't speak English that good.....but she tried :)
After our meal Dani's mom brought us to Tessan's house to

pre-party. I met a few close friends and I really liked them! They're cute, caring and fun......

After a bottle of red wine (and purple teeth hahaha) we took off to party in some sort of club.
We danced, drank and even played some black jack!
Ordering a rum/coke is not that funny in Sweden to be honest.......12 fucking euro's that's criminal, anyways, I had a blast!
I know that we ate some night food at the MC Donalds and headed home after that to crash in bed! Everything else is a bit blurry....uhum!

On Sunday we chilled with movies, food and icecream! The party took all our energy away hmm! We hooked up with a few friends again in the evening, to grab something to eat and drove back after that to Örebro. Tessan joined us, so we could travel back by car, nice!
I packed my stuff and we ended up on the sofa to watch another movie "The Hitch hiker's guide to the Galaxy", which I think is hilarious......but It turned out that I was the only one in the room that laughed haha!

We fell asleep around 2 am, but I woke up every hour cuz OMG.......I never ever heard someone snore that hard as Tessan! Girl, you have a serious problem there hahaha.

The alarm went early.....cuz I had to catch the bus at 8am to get back to the airport!

And guess what? It was snowing.......and I had to leave pfff.

No Johnny snowman for Dani, sorry girl!!

I had a fab time, I really felt Dani's life and that was exactly what I wanted.

Thanks babe, for the quality time we spend together......I really liked it and I can't wait to see you again in 31 days <3